Rainy days

The last couple of days have been dispiriting and rather gloomy. Not only are the warm, sunny days slowly being replaced by rain, dropping temperatures and shorter days, but I’m also in very much doubt whether to go through with the surgery or not.

There is no golden ticket, as I’ll either be left with a 15 cm scar right across my collarbone or an asymmetrical shoulder with a permanent bump. Whichever way I turn it around, there are a million pros and a trillion cons.

If I get the surgery, I may have to have the plate removed after a while, which means that no matter how much I try to care for the scar afterwards, they might have to open it up again. If I don’t, my bones may not grow back together or they may but then that will shorten my collarbone and might cause muscle/coordination problems.

Nevertheless, the solution to many problems is merely shopping.
So I bought three pairs of new shoes yesterday at the Fashion Bazaar. I got all three pairs for 200 crowns (equal to roughly 25 euros). Couldn’t decide which colour to get the ballerinas in and since recreational shopping is all about “don’t worry about it, buy it all“, that’s what I did.

After the very therapeutic shopping, I decided to go into hibernation with a bowl of yogurt and my newly acquired blanket that I imagine feels like what a cloud in a cartoon would feel like. (Really, it’s so unbelievable soft, I for a second considered whether I could bring it with me to class this morning..)

Now it’s time to get back to homework. Sigh.

xxx